I grew up being known as the strong and independent girl.
Strong girls are those who constantly bear the weight of other people’s expectations, those who put a brave act, even if they knew deep down that they are on a verge of falling apart.
I was always the listener, someone whom they can run to when life tends to slowly fall apart.
I experience and survived hardship without the help of anyone, i grew up comforting myself everytime life starts treating me badly. I grew up not telling other people my problems, simply because i was known as the strong and independent girl who doesn’t need any help.
Behind a facade of a strong girl who can handle everything, hides a girl who longs for nothing but a shoulder she can lean on.
I’m used to asking people if they’re okay, but deep down inside me, i wish people out there would asked me what i’m going through too. I’m used to being the listener, but sometimes i wish i was heard, too.
I wish i had a shoulder to cry on too, but..
Who am i if i’m not the the strong girl everyone can run to?
What is my sole purpose if i can’t be the strong girl, they always thought i would be?
It hurts to always be known as the strong and independent girl, but maybe there’s nothing i can do. Because maybe that is my duty — my role. To always be the strong girl everyone else can run to.
